What the hell have I.

Darkness invades the room without knocking. Somedays I just seem to wake up like this, like everything in the universe is shit, little black cloud over my head following me around wherever I go.

All the ugliness in the world is back, everything seems imperfect and I turn bitter and hopeless about everything. Like a little kid, really, whining to mommy about how life is unfair.

I enter this loop... because I hate it when people keep bitching to you about things, and I never want to do that, so I keep trying not to sound like I'm bitching and then I end up sounding very strange.

I don't want to be an ass and end up being one. Maybe I should just lock myself up during days like this.

Or maybe it's just sunday night.