Not sure what I should feel

It's been like this everyday.
I get in focus, get stressed and forget what I feel.
I get lost in a mixture of profound anger, sadness, but at the same time, some kind of laziness that keeps me from acting.
I get desperate and kneel on my altar of perception, begging for it to show me the way. But there's no light there. Just a bunch of problems and screams.
I get stuck. This isn't like me. Not what I should feel at least.